NCLEX Exam

The NCLEX is the state exam that I had to take in order to get my nursing license. As I previously posted I didn't pass it the first two times that I took it. These last few months have been really hard for me because of this. I began to question if nursing is what I am supposed to be doing at all. I wondered if I just wasted five and a half years of my life getting this degree that I would never be able to use. I had a job all lined up and it seemed like it was no longer within my reach. I was so frustrated as I tried to study because I felt like I knew the material, I just couldn't get passed the test. I don't know why I had to go through this trial in my life but I do know that it has made me study harder than I have ever studied before. I believe that I will be a better nurse because I have had to work so hard to get it. I have been humbled like I have never been humbled before. I realized that I could not do this on my own. I have had to have faith in my Heavenly Father that He would help me. Through this experience it has made me grow closer to my Heavenly Father and develop a better relationship with him, for that I am grateful for. I knew that all I could do is study really hard and pray and rely on Him. I had so many people that were praying and fasting for me and I just want to thank all of them. I had so many people supporting me. I feel so lucky to have so many friends and family that care so much about me. I have worked as a phlebotomist at IHC for 5 years now and even all of my coworkers were pulling for me. My nursing manager has been amazing and held my position for me until I could pass my test. As you can imagine, after failing the test twice it was hard to have the confidence in myself that I could do this. I had already done most of my training as a nurse and knew that I could do the job. I just didn't know if I would ever be able to get passed this test. My anxiety level increased with each attempt to pass it. I don't think Bryce has ever seen so many tears in his life. I want to thank him. He was so sweet through the whole thing and would listen and comfort me. 

I was kinda bummed to have to take the test for the third time on our anniversary trip to Vegas. I still was able to forget about the test and have fun though. As soon as we got home I began to think about all of the what ifs. What if I passed? What if I didn't? It takes 48 hours to find out whether or not you passed the test. It is just miserable to wait for it. But I had heard that you can try and register for the test again and if it lets you then you didn't pass and if it won't let you register then you passed. This theory so far seemed to be true because I tried it the first two times and it let me register and sure enough, I had failed. Well this third time I didn't want to even try it because I didn't want to ruin my Vegas trip if I didn't pass it. But when I got home Bryce was at work and I was starting to go crazy thinking about it so I decided to try to register. It didn't let me register! All I could do was cry. I was hoping so bad that this was it, that this really meant that I had passed the test. The next morning I logged on and sure enough I PASSED!! I was so excited! I have been waiting so long for this. I called my family to tell them the good news and we all cried again. But at least they were tears of joy! I like these kind of tears much better. I just want to thank everyone for their love and support as I went through this trial. I know that my Heavenly Father was there helping me and that it was because of all of the prayers on my behalf that I was finally successful in passing the test.

They held my job for me and I am now working as a nurse at Valley View Medical Center in Cedar City as a nurse on the Medical/Surgical floor full time on day shift. I am loving it!

I worked really hard to get this badge!

 My official license came in the mail!